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Life

Today I feel compelled to share with you my beliefs in our purpose here on earth and why we must coexist. Why those amazing people come in our lives, why we love and get heart broken, why those assholes fuck us up in the head to teach us to be more skeptical and why we lose people who touched our lives we never thought imaginable to know we had a purpose.
In the book To Heaven And Back by Dr. Mary C. Neal, which I highly recommend no matter what your spiritual beliefs or religion is, chapter 17 is especially paramount to the meaning of life. Therefore I highlighted it here for you-

To Heaven and Back by Dr. Mary C. Neal 

Chapter 17

I don't believe in luck or coincidence as phenomena. I believe God has a hand in most things and most of what happens is part of a larger plan. 

"rejoice always" even in the midst of terrible circumstances. "Why do bad things happen to good people?" the answer is in this following wisdom-

We are each given the opportunity and privilege to come to earth for different reasons. Sometimes we come in order that we may personally develop and strengthen the fruits of our spirit: those of love, kindness, patience, joy, peace, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Sometimes we come to help someone else develop the fruits of the spirit. We all come to earth to become more Christ-like, as noted in Romans 8.

In preparation for our journey to earth, we are able to make a basic outline for our life. This is not to imply that we, the humans, are entirely in charge of our life's design. It is more like God creates it, then we review it and discuss it with our "personal planning" angel. Within the algoithm are written branch points in our lives at which times we may exit, return to God, or we may be redirected to a different task and goal.

We may be directed to these branch points by our own conscious choice and by our circumstances, or we may be pushed along by angelic intervention. Have you ever shown up somewhere as "just the right time"? When you think back on your life, can you remember a person who breifly entered your life, saying something or doing something that impacted your life out of proportion to what they actually said or did? What were the circumstances that brought you together with your spouse or the detailed circumstances of other such notable events in your life? Have you ever been randomly thinking of someone who then unexpectedly shows up or contacts you? Has something ever happened that left you thinking "that's weird"? Consider whether these are sets of "coincidences" or whether they might be orchestrated events; evidence of God's hand in our lives. SIDE NOTE: also why The Secret makes sense.

Although we are rarely aware of angels or their intervention in our world, I believe there are angels all around us every day of our lives. Angels are spirit beings who are mentioned more than 250 times in both the Old Testament and the New Testament of the Bible. They appear as creatures, events, and humans, offering praise and worship to God. They care for, protect, and guide God's people, frequently intervening or bringing messages to people from God. They are the ones orchestrating the "coincidences" that occur so commonly in our lives.

Of note most theologians would agree that angels live among us according to God's will, not our own. Lewis Sperry Chafer wrote in Systematic Theology "One reason angels are rendered invisible to human sight may be that if they were seen, they would be worshiped. Man, who is so prone to idolatry as to worship the works of his own hands , would hardly be able to resist the worship of angels were seen before his eyes"

While often unrecognized, angels certainly seem to be present and active in our world today. A Newsweek article titled "In Search of the Sacred" (November 1994) observed, "Twenty percent of Americans have had a revelation from God in the last year, and 13 percent have seen or sensed the presence of an angel."

Angels often expose us to, or push us into, a situation that will force our redirection. Of course, our redirection is not REALLY forced; rather, as we are compelled to approach the fork in our road, we make a choice to turn left or right. Every choice leads us forward, and there is no going backward, no "redo". Every choice we make today affects the choices that we face tomorrow. Planet earth and the humans living on it are truly interconnected, and there is no action without some sort of reaction.

Even the most terrible circumstances and events can stimulate great change in individuals and/or societies. Without observing cruelty, we would not be moved to compassion. Without personal trials, we would not develop patience or faithfulness. It is the recognition that our earthly concerns matter little when compared to the life eternal that allows us to know joy in the midst of sorrow and worry. Have you ever really changed or experienced personal growth during times of comfort or complacency? The acceptance that change rarely comes without difficulty and challenge can truly free a person to "rejoice always". It also allows us to live daily with a gratful heart and "give thanks in all circumstances". No matter what the circumstances, we can be grateful that God fulfills His promises, that our faith is sufficient to sustain us, and that our eternal life is assured.

Sometimes uncomfortable situations or irritating people are placed in our lives to lead us in a direction more in line with God's will. As difficult as it may be to accept, I do know that God loves each and every one of them every bit as he loves me. Rather than being irritated by their behavior, I now take joy in the knowledge that their behavior is teaching me patience and I give thanks for this. I also pray for them.

Each of us is like a small piece of thread that contributes to the weaving of a very large very beautiful tapestry. We, as single threads, spend our lives worrying about our thread- what color it is and how long it is_ even becoming upset if it becomes torn or frayed. The complete tapestry is far too large for us to see and of too complex a pattern for us to appreciate the importance of our single thread. Regardless, without our individual contribution, the tapestry would be incomplete and broken. We should, therefore, recognize and take joy in our contribution. Indeed, our threads-our lives-are important; what we do and the coices we make, even the seemingly small ones, actually make a difference.

The Secret Language of Birthdays

I highly recommend this book/site!!!! Simply put in your birthdate and it is just uncanny the information it tells you about yourself! I have read mine over and over and even shared it with my therapist (because who else cares about knowing about the real YOU) and I'm still taken back by all the distinct information. Try it out!
http://www.thesecretlanguage.com/report/personology/?r=19840305